Did I become so numb after all I have gone through during the last two years? Did this start way before? I got no answers...
I´m aware that I´m stronger than others when life hits you hard that you freeze and everyone and everything that surround you seem being freezed as well...the last year has been tough, three days before going to Slovakia to spend 10 months studying abroad my oldest cousin passed away in a climbing tragedy, few minutes ago it was my last grandfather who passed away, I still remember when we were all gathered in my grandparents house one year ago the sadness and impotence we all felt, and there he was my grandfather all puzzled and dejected, crying as all of us were, everyone in our family hoped he didn´t realize due to his brain-damaged situation, but what he didn´t notice was the sad I felt when I saw him being aware of everything was going on, but I am like I am, and it didn´t last much.
For god sake, I couldn´t picture I would live a tragedy like that, but sadness didn´t overwhelm me for too long, I don´t let feelings to control my whole life, the life is short and the time is priceless to live it more for the deads that for the ones that are still alive...and I´m seeing my mother depressed and touched since one year ago...and I cannot do nothing about it, but I don´t want her to live that way...am I still so numb after all I wrote? Why do I feel angry in someway? Why I feel sad in the meanwhile I´m typing but I´m not able to shed any tear? should I feel bad with myself? should I be mad at me with these numbness or should I be blessed?
Beyond all what happened tonight I cannot stop thinking about the TVserie I finished to watch today, I´m talking about Mr. Robot, every episode was awesome and made me think a lot that this is exactly the society we are living on, it looked so possible to be carried out someday by someone all this hack the world think.
From my point of view, this master piece brings up many things:
1. It criticizes the society we´re living on, everyone, themselves, being totally controlled by the electronic devices and the technology we made, and there is no way out, technology grows exponentially and has to be treated carefully to grow in a positve way, but the human being is far from carefulnees. Everything you do is in internet, even what you don´t know, we are exposed to everyone, if someone want to track you and is capable of, all your privacy will not be private any more. That´s what I think this serie try to show us with the realtionship Elliot and his psychiatrist have, he got along well with her caused he hacked her and he could see, despite her loneliness she´s a good person, even her loneliness made Elliot to be closer to her cause he felt the same, both had that in common.
2. The second thing it got my attention was Elliot´s personality. Are genius always like that? I mean, real genius. In Elliot case, he has dissociative dissorder, conversion dissorder, schizophrenia, whatever, but to me it seems like he gotta be two persons, he needs two brains, he needs help to think due to one brain hasn´t enough room for all he has on mind. Why am I wondering this? I read last year in internet that one guy called Stephen Wiltshire (autism) made a scale drawing of New York city after an helicopter ride all over the city. I wonder if the human brain is not able to stand knowledge in a big scale, so when intelligence goes over the top, the pipe gotta leak.
3. Evil Corp, the name of the company represents the power and cruelty every big company in the world has, and the repercussions the crash of every big corporation could have in our society. Would be possitive a revolution like this one? I´m not able to picture it, but the scriptwriters of this TV serie I´m sure will be capable of, meanwhile, I will be looking forward for the beggining of the second season.
- Go ahead. Wath´s on your mind
- I know you´re not without your troubles but we still haven´t discussed the coltan mines.
- You´re really bringing that up at a time like this?
- You asked, I answered, succinctly
- Well, perhaps I was too hasty. I´d like for the moment, to take in the music. Besides...plenty of other items on our agenda. The fucking Congo can wait.
- Oh, your troubles are weighing heavily on you. I´m not entirely sure why. I was told that you know the person responsible.
- Yes. Yes. Of course we do. And we will handle that person as we usually do.
- You seem a little preoccupied yourself.
- I don´t believe in preoccupation. It´s more of an observation
- Which is?
-The infamous Emperor Nero played an instrument very similar to the one she´s playing, the lyre. Legend has it that he played it merrily as he watched...(clock beeps twice)
- As he watched?
- As he watched Rome burn
